It's all about the energy

I was raised Baptist, attended a Catholic high school for one year, and was Pentecostal for a portion of my adult life. I had always allowed my belief in a 'higher power" to govern my life. I may not have been perfect (nor am I now), but church, faith and prayer had always played integral roles in my day to day. As of late, I have begun to question my belief(s). I won't go into the 'who's', 'what's' and 'why's', as faith in a higher being (or lack thereof), is always quite the touchy subject. The more that I grow as a person, the more I am realizing that I am a spiritual being. What does that mean? You might ask. Well, I guess that once you've peeled away the overlying layers of bullshit, all humans possess an innate spiritual essence. It shines through our eyes, it seeps from our pores. It is so very evident in the way we speak, the way we laugh, the way we interact with one another. With that spirit comes energy. That part of us that never dies because energy never dies.. it is merely transferred from one place to another!

Energy is a manifestation of what is living in our hearts and in our minds. If someone has a dark heart and a closed mind, the energy that they exude is not welcoming. It can not be disguised. Their very aura is dim and their eyes can not hide the bitterness and hate brewing just below the surface. I am attracted to people with bright eyes, bright energy and a welcoming aura. I am very much put off by negative energy, bad vibes frighten me. I look back over my life and I realize that I had allowed people with dark spiritual output to share my space for far too long and in the wrong capacity. Removing said people from my life has given me a sense of peace that can not be described. A lot of past heartache came as a direct result of my biblical belief in 'loving thy neighbor' and 'turning the other cheek'. The analytical part of my being has since taken over and is forcing me to see that I was going about things all wrong. If your Chi is all sorts of fucked up, then I'm sorry, I must keep you at arm's length. I will not pray for you, I will not accept you for who you are. I will make it abundantly clear to you that I have no desire to be in your presence, nor can I have you in mine. Ever.

Questioned beliefs or not, the one thing that is ever increasing (to me), is my awareness of the energy surrounding people. I can feel it in a handshake, I can see it in a smile, I can feel it during the course of a brief conversation. My thirst for positive energy can not make the distinction between Catholic, Jew, Protestant, Christian, Muslim or Atheist. I could not care less how or if a person worships, if their energy is kind, then I have met a true kindred spirit. Yes, it is definitely all about the energy.


Until next time, guys!